First Dr.'s Appointment

So... I am way far behind, so let's travel back to January 20, 2008. I'm about 6 1/2 weeks pregnant.

I went to work that morning feeling awful. I was so nauseous and extremely light headed. When I got to work I felt even worse. Then I started freaking out. I just knew there was no way I was supposed to feel that bad. Something had to be wrong. I immediately went to the school nurse in tears. I think I just needed some encouragement. I then decided I could not rest until I went to the Dr. Our wonderful school secretary got me a sub and I left. I was able to get a Dr.s appt. at 1:00. I basically sat and cried all morning. I just kept praying that everything would be o.k. My wonderful husband came home and sat with me. He was trying to be strong for me, but I could tell he was nervous. Finally appt. time came. Of course there were more tears. I cried in the waiting room, bathroom, and sonogram room. I have never in my life been so scared and worried. As I lay on the table I just kept saying "Please God, please God, don't take this baby from us." Then the technician said the words..."We have a heartbeat!" Those were the most beautiful words I had ever heard. Then came the most beautiful sound of that tiny heart beating. I was in such awe of how amazing God is. We had a wonderful, perfect baby.

We're Pregnant...Now What?!?!

We found out we were pregnant on New Year's Eve...well I say we...just me. Casey was out of town. He was coming home later that afternoon because we were going to be getting together with some friends to celebrate the new year. I woke up that morning feeling a little strange, not nauseous or anything, just strange. I started thinking about pregnancy. I really didn't think I was, but since I was going to participate in New Year's Festivities I wanted to make sure. I didn't want to feel guilty later on. Well the Holy Spirit must have been speaking to me because sure enough the test came back positive. I was soooooo freaked out. I frantically called my friend Carey and told her. She told me to come over ASAP! I went to the store and bought another test and rushed over to her house to take it. Of course it to was positive again. It's hard to explain my emotions. I was excited, shocked, and scared to death. I held it together until I got home. As soon as I walked through the door of my house I fell to my knees and cried out to God. Casey and I had lost a baby in April and I feared it would happen again. I didn't know if I could take that pain again. I cried for about an hour before I was finally able to control myself. I was filled with the peace that God was in control and the future had already been mapped out for us. It was at that moment that I could truly be excited. I was going to be a mommy!!!